Anger and Fear...

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."

~Master Yoda~

A weird entry to start this year with. I could have start with my new years resolution. Talked about my hopes and dreams. Talk about how disappointed I was not reaching the 100 mark for the year 2010. I could have talked about the sad and depressing Kuala Lumpur International Motor Show which had a lousy Batmobile but an awesome Bumblebee. But for some divine reason, my heart tells me to write about my feelings. My feelings of anger and hate.

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said "For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty minutes of happiness." He's right. But there is always a reason for being angry. For some jealousy, vengeance and etc. . Anger is part of being human. It is an emotion necessary for us to move on. To keep moving forward. A fire that is necessary but at to what cost. At to what cost.

For the past few days i have been  furious. Down right angry. Angry at my friends. Angry at my family. Angry at myself. And yet i can not express it. Why? Because I'm afraid. Afraid of losing friends. Afraid about making other people angry. Afraid of starting a fire I can not put out. I look in the mirror and I am disgusted at what I see. A weak pathetic sad excuse for a human being and friend. A man clouded by fears and insecurity. I hear you asking the question dear reader. Is this a man crying for help. It's not. It is a man writing his thoughts at the one outlet he knows where there will be no rebuttals. This is a man telling the world that he win over his battle over anger. This is a man telling the world that he will be fine in time. Even though he knows that it is a lie. Until next time folks, TTFN and have an awesome 2011.

"Take no revenge that you have not pondered beneath a starry sky, or on a canyon overlook, or to the lapping of waves and the mewing of a distant gull."

~Robert Brault~